fighting for oreos.

Friday, November 28, 2008

gawd...
im fcuking pissed off by the fcuking class...
actually,was in high sprits,then when reach the place,no mood already.
fcuk,didnt eat much,didnt drink much.
what the fcuk!!

nvm,now im fcuking hungry lah!!
dont mind the vulgarities.
I PROMISE to stop when december starts.

no mood to update already.
tmr shall update,
now im starving to death.

mum kao pei kao bu me.
i was thinking: fcuk you lah!

~ends~

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Wednesday, November 26, 2008

My Fourth Vision

I saw me emerging into a valley of darkness,a valley of despair,a valley of fear...
As I walked along the path,
there was no one around,not a single soul was in sight.
I continued walking along that dark path with very little light.

Then,I found myself walking along a street,
with many lamp posts,very brightly lited ones.
As I walked past those lamps,
they suddenly went off.

I ignored the lamp & continued walking,I thought it was electrical faults.
But,as I passed another lamp post,
it went off again.
I felt weird.
I felt a presence,an evil presence,a strong one...

I kept on walking but all the lamp post went off,
until i reached a store which has crosses on display,that lamp post outside that store,
did not went off.
I thank the Heavenly King & prayed for his blessings to protect me.
Then i continued walking,
it happened.

The host of satan's angels swept passed me,making me weaker.
I kept on walking,walking briskly.
I need to find that light,that pure heavenly light.

I found it,i thought to myself,looking at the pureness of the light.
& I ran towards it.
I was full of hope to get out of that place,that evil place.
Then,when i reached the light,
I was absorbed into another world.

As darkness clouded my mind,
I saw a group of Heavenly Angels around me.
I knew I was in heaven...

A quiz that I owe Caryn frm a loooooooooooonggggggggggggg time ago.
so now gonna do it.

1) What is your favourite colour?
Green & Orange

2) How many sibling do you have?
None.

3) What would you do if you like someone?
Wait for that person,or maybe let fate take its place?

4) Where would be your ideal date be?
hmm.....dont want tell you!

5) Which place would you like to visit very much?
Taiwan!!

6) Have you ever gotten into a relationship?
yea....

7) What kind of flower do you like?
Rose & Orchid

8) What is the language that you speak the most?
English

9) If you could have a pet what would it be?
Obviously a dog.

10) How tall are you?
1.64m ~ 1.65m

11) How heavy are you?
50 plus?

12) Do you currently like someone?
hmm....yes & no?

13) what is he/she like?
Table tennis & playing the french horn

14) Why do you like him/her?
So busybody for?

15) Do you think that you will be unfaithful?
If i was,then i think that having a relationship isn't worth it.

16) what is your ambition?
Food Sciencetist or Story writer

17) Where are your parents from?
Singapore,obviously!-.-

18) Do you think loved by someone or loving soemone is more fortunate?
Both?

19) list down one letter tht apear in your crush name.
hmm.....I

Not gonna sabotage ppl.

ah....
today was another rotting day for me at home.
went to the market in the morning to get some food for the bbq,
got prawns & squids.then get the vegetables for the bee hoon.
got some food & headed home.
played maple,watch some animations,chatted & slept.

~ends~

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Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Today very boring,except when i waqs watching Soul Eater again.
well,what can i say,i wont get bored from watching a million times.
practically,i was at home the whole day,chatting,watching anime,playing maple & listening to music.
ahh~
i wanna improve my singing talent,well,i was borne with it?
who knows.

whatever,time to stop crapping & get on to serious matters.
yes,serious time!!
ok,that was random.

well,what else can i say?
2A1 is the most un-cooperative class among the secondary 2 cohort.
its a fact,& probably one of the worst class ever.
we have bullying services ranging from driving the teacher mad to making the teacher cry.
& we charge $5 per service.
ok,that was real crap.

well,one whole day of doing the usual stuff really kinda makes me bored.
i slept for awhile in the afternoon & continued using the laptop.
tmr's gonna be another BORING day for me,staying at home,doing the same stuff.
& thursday gonna be the day of food shopping!!for the bbq of course.
& friday's gonna be the bbq day!!

Messages

message to Weijie:
Hey,
dont worry about your examinations,its all gonna to be fine.
just study hard & dont burn the midnight oil too late!!
or you'll be a zombie the next day.haha.
hope that you can pass this semester's examinations!!
well,do stop blaming yourself for whatever that has happened,
after all,everything WAS NOT your fault too.
Everybody regrets something.
I dont want you to think too much alrights?
just concentrate on your studies okays?
thanks for lending your ears to my troubles & complains.
& also for making me smile when i was down,joking with me almost all the time.
thanks loads!!!

ahh~
really hope that weijie will pass his examinations.
i dont want him to repeat the module again.

~ends~

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Monday, November 24, 2008

really no mood lah..
come home,argue this argue that.
i dont even feel a sense of home at home lah!
i would rather just jump off a building can?then they happy is it?
i your own daughter,dont trust me then dont trust lor!
i wished i dont even have a mother like you can?!
go to hell!

NO MOOD TO UPDATE CAN?!

~ends~

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Sunday, November 23, 2008

today woke up at 6am,then thought i late for church.
checked time,wa...so early,then went back to sleep.
woke up,realised that it was 7am.
so exact,then bathe,headed for church.
then today was the Feast of Christ The King[last sunday of the year before christams],
then next sunday onwards is Advent,sundays before Christmas.
I got a solo for the 3rd sunday of Advent.
ahh~

then choir practice,the priest,Fr.Simon Tan.
wa...he lecturing us about choir stuff & church stuff.
so long,i was listening o music & trying to Lip read.
then practiced song.

took train,went back to clementi.
but went to eat my favourite noodle.
then went to jurong,met waihian & liyun,
then they went to eat.
was bored while waiting,so was listening to music & looking elsewhere,
somehow i felt the presence of claudine[my good twin],in me crying.
then was like no mood lah.

took mrt,headed to cityhall,went to find suntec city.
then went to the anime fest there.at first quite fun,but then,
as time passed,it got boring...
anw,i got the maple poster!!
nvm,tat was random.

took train home,then when i took bus,saw Joachim[teacher],said hi & chatted then went off.
anw,we stay very super near.
lol.

why cant you adults understand me?
im still a teenager you know?
i have things to do,stuffs to organize & plan.
i need to relax but i cant!
i hate what happened just now.its totaly unreasonable.
i wished i could die,but after chatting with Golden Pig=Miss Leo,i felt better actually.
thanks though!
i hope that life could be better...

~ends~

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Saturday, November 22, 2008

My Split Personality[True conversation]

me: Anyone there?
waihian:yup?
me: i...i..i....
waihian:yea?....?
me:pm>>
waihian:wat happen?...
me:the other me is bad & its making my mind turn bad.now i feel like watching ____ & ______ myself.
waihian:why?-.-"
me:bad me is turning me bad
waihian:wad cause you to think like tat?did something happen to you?
me:i dunnoe....i really felt very weak just now on the way home,in band i almost puke
me:& now its eating me up
waihian:not feeling well?
me:i never get sick
waihian:maybe ure sick-.-
me:no.she controlling my mind asking me to _____...
waihian:-.-go consult tat person in youtube
me:i dont like claudiu!:'(
waihian:huh?
me:i dont like claudiu!!tell her go die quick...
waihian:who's tat?
me:i dont wan her,tell her i dont want to be controlled
waihian:den try to control her?
me:she controlling me..i dont like her!!she controlling my heart,my mind...tell her go away
waihian:den make urfelf busy so tat she wont hv the chance to tell you
me:she controlling my heart:'(
waihian:heart?loving others?
me:she making me bad,i dont wan.i hate her,tell her go away
waihian:juz leave her alone?..
me:**** you lah.go hell.smelly *******
me::'( stop it...sorry waihian..is not i scold you...soryy~~~~
waihian:?...nvm,relly nvm
me:blame her,not my fault
waihian:nah,its okay
me:she dont wan return her back...she very bad,i dont like her,ask her return her back
waihian:huh?
me:she very bad,i ask her return claudia back,she dont want.ihateher!ihateher!ihateher!
waihian:who r u?
me:you dont know me....?
waihian:u sound weird.u tok as if u like got split personality
me:you still dont know me...?
waihian:okay,i noe u.u r claudia,juz tat u sound off today.
me:no...
waihian:den?
me:i am claudine
waihian:come on,stop bluffing urself.u are who u are.tat's no nid to change mask for everyone.juz be urself.
me:i am really not claudia...
me:haha,stupid suckers!****
me:i dont like her...
waihian:who?
me:i dont like claudiu,she is so bad...so naughty...& she likes to say bad words
waihian:i see...
me:why you dont know me?she never tell you about me?
waihian:no..
me:why she so naughty...why she never tell you?is it you make her naughty?bad boy...
waihian:yea,i think so
me:bad boy!bad boy!you make her naughty!i dont care,change her back for me please.i dont want her to be bad like claudiu.
waihian:den give urself a time for u do the good stuff.make urself busy,so tat claudiu wont bully you again.
me:nvm,when she come back,you must ask her.i fighting with claudiu.i must bring her back!
waihian:bring her back for wad?leave her be.then she will be mature
me:i dont want to leave claudia alone!!i want to bring her back!
waihian:wad's wrong with u?
me:byebye waihian,must help me change her.she is a very good person.she coming back soon....
me:what the hell happened

me(good,claudine)
me(bad,claudiu)
me(normal)
waihian

instead of chatting with waihian,
my mind went blank half-way,i was in another dimension.
in midst of a battle between good & bad,claudine[good],claudiu[bad].
i was looking at them fight,but in the end,claudine emerged victorius,& i once again returned to my normal state.
A few of you knows that i have split personalities,now you know.

freak,today was damn freaking tired.
woke up,had fall in,but i felt like puking,still continued.
anw,played then got break then play until 4plus.
borrowed instrument,tuner,the slide oil,grease home.
well,tmr got church,im so tired!!
but no,im not gonna miss any mass!!

~ends~

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Friday, November 21, 2008

freaking boring.
tmr got band,have to wake up early.
so irritating lah,last minute tell me.-.-
tmr gonna be superb boring,maybe got flag-raising also.
BORING~~
lucky i nvr raise flag,haha.

i plan to relax~~
but so damn....nvm,just have a tight shedule.
must relax~~

Here are the 5 names [& their feast day] for comfirmation next year,but have not chose yet:
1)St.Honorina-28th Febuary
2)St.Petronilla-31st May
3)St.Helena-18th August
4)St.Symphonrian-22nd August
5)St.Emilian-6th December

Somehow,i cant choose.I dont know which one to choose.
but after researching about the names[saints],i still dont know which one to choose.
I felt that St.Honorina had something to do with honour,
St.Petronilla sounds like petrol,
St.Helena sounds somehow,quite uneasy about it,
St.Symphorian,i felt its unique-ness & i felt there's something behind the name
& St.EMilian,same like St.Symphorian.

Still,i dunnoe which one.
can you tell me choose which one?
thanks.

~ends~

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Thursday, November 20, 2008

Life
Why do we,as humans,have to live life to the fullest & not just die?
Yes Golden Pig,I'm answering your question now.

We after all,are humans & when we start living this meaningless world,
we have to suffer & enjoy.
Not all get to relax & enjoy.
If we're born lucky,then we can relax & enjoy.
If not,we have to suffer & just accept everything.

Even as students,we may have family or friendships problem.
But still,we have to accept everything & think as though everything had passed.
Even if we are blamed for no reason,accept it,
for arguing would cause more problems[im serious].

Well,we have friends to help & guide us,
that's why we have to treasure them like gold & precious silver.
They come & go easily,
that's why we have to tell them everything before it happens.
Or it will be too late...

That's my speech from my point of view.
If you want me to say more,then ak me wor,golden piggy.
I will lend you my ears & my shoulder,etc.
Smiles always.=)

I hate it.
I hate attitude problem people.
I wish I was in another school..?
But if i was not in this school,I would not have made wonderful friends like Xiao kitty,PP[Punky penguin],Miss Leo[golden piggy],& others who i have not mentioned,but had been one to me,
like ______.
THANK YOU SO MUCH!
MERCI!
GRAZIE!
GRACIAS!

Next year comfirmation year,will get a new name.
hopefully the name i choose is nice & fits my full name.
I want to go back to church after comfirmation & teach cathechism.

Today went out to meet liyun at 11plus almost 12nn.
then walked to the bubble tea shop there to get drinks,then took bus.
but the bus went to the wrong stop,so we had to walk back.
waited for inging to open the back gate for us.
then went,played uno,chatted,slacked.
stupid security guard.

then went to play badminton & basketball,barefooted.
then ate sushi & bread pizza.
then played & chatted for awhile then went home,
because of something.
then walked to bukit gombak mrt,send jilin off.
then me & liyun went to get soya milk.
then walked to pime supermarket find something,then walk home.

reached home,didnt talk to anyone.
i simply ignored my mother & siblings.
argh!!
nvm,i dont wish to talk about it.
listening to muttons,they so insulting.-.-

Miss Leo,please stop thinking about death.
Talk to me if you have to,dont think already.
please.

~ends~

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Wednesday, November 19, 2008

freak lah...no mood to update.
my temper caused me to whack my brother with a hanger.
-.-
my temper...
that's what happened to...
nvm,i refused to disclose any information about that person.
but i shall about my temper.

My Temper
My temper spoils my mood.
My temper spoils my face.
My temper spoils my name.
My temper never gives me peace,it spoils me.

I never knew I would be so violent.
Even my bestfriends told me I had changed.
Why,i asked myself,with tears rolling down my cheeks.
Is it the school or the friends?or is it just me changing by myself?
I did not know the answer.
Keeping quiet,i went to compare the old & now me.

It was UN-SURPRISINGLY huge,as in a huge difference.
I didnt knew i had changed that MUCH.
I was at suicidal thoughts,i didnt know what to do.
Either way out,I'd still be at a losing end.

I broke down,cried until a box of tissue was used up.
Counsulting my friends,they kindly listened to my moans,groans & complains.
Then they told me their point of view.
I protested,i argued that no one understands my plight.
I walked away.
I ignored them,i never knew they would.

That was the point i regretted.
"Please...come...back..." was all i could mutter.
I went back.
When another situation broke out,i had to do it alone,
but before i could,i went to say goodbye.

Then i said,"You are special out of others.But what makes you special is the way you treated me from the rest.So im telling you that im going now."
She didnt replied,even though i waited outside the door.
But in the end,she opened the door & we went to accomplish a mission.

"Thanks for being that special someone who were always at my side,guiding me from good & from wrong,sharing my joys & sorrows.Thank you."
& I bowed down at her.
Since that day,we were never separated by quarels or arguments.

I still remember what Miss Choy said.
that time when i went back on teachers' day,she asked me a similar question like last year,"Have you found that special someone?"
I answered "No" but i looked puzzled.
She replied,"That someone,someone who will guide you on the right path when you walk onto the wrong path.They will come to you soon."

Even though I still dont understand it,i tried to figure what she meant.
I mean,why must I have someone to guide me in life?
Anyway,i was figuring it out when i realised...I still dont know who are they.
I mean,i cant anyhow say them right?I need to find them.
Probably,Miss Choy will be asking me the same question again.

~ends~

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Tuesday, November 18, 2008

fcuk.no fcuking mood to update or chat.
but i will.

went to meet liyun at 12,then headed to westmall to get stuff.
then went to meet denise at bukit gombak mac.
then discussed to her abt the bbq thing & she was a game master.
then she went off first.

then was starving like hell!!
waited for aziemah,fandi,hakim,weijien to come but then in the end replace hakim with noor.
so discuss until 6pm,we settles everything then everyone go except for me & liyun.
stayed to re-copy stuff.

then went to void deck.
liyun felt uneasy,i didnt[cause i was wearing a jacket].
then took out penknife,she ok le.
then aziemah said she dont want to become game master,i was like wtf.
she only want to enjoy.i also want,but i cant!

nvm,asked others.all want to enjoy only.got fcuking pissed off.
then when i went to unplug the pluck,i felt it.
was talkingto liyun abt it.
then left.

reached home.
had fcuking quarrel with mum.
wat the fcuk.
then,just cried in the bathroom,super fcuked up.
then just chatted.

oh yes,i need to thnk people.
life counsellor,Miss Life.

Hey Penguin=Miss Life=Waihian,
Thank you alot for your counselling session.
though you say wat you said did not help,it did.
It made me feel better.
Thank you for lending me your ears & for your advices.
I suppose you should have a counselling centre,the online version.
Thank you alot!

& of course Miss Leo,who always make me go siao.
somehow,she can do it.haha.
Thank you!

~ends~

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Monday, November 17, 2008

I suppose i will just update what i heard yesterday.

After the brush hitted liyun's face[aiming sucks],
she was angry.
Being a " " person,i said sorry with sincerity[different from sincerly],
then we didnt talk.
& it seemed SUPER awkward cause before that we were like chatting & laughing.

nvm.
squatting at a position where the legs would hurt if stayed at that position for too long,
but surprisingly,it really didnt hurt that much.
well,i was reading books at that position without people around me,
so i didnt really cared abit.

But then,something i heard really made my hair stand up.
Being a person who has a strong hearing & moderate feeling,
I heard something,a particular sound which i had heard before.
I swear I wasn't dreaming as it happened before.
That sound,since the first time it followed me home[to my doorstep],
has always been around...

Its freaky!!I didnt know it was following me around,only the sound alerted me.
I felt it,it was barely 1 metre away.
It changed my mood,i was finally angry,
but for once,at that thing!
_ _ _.

Then when we took 188,i closed my eyes & thought about it.
I never knew I would experience one myself,
even though in primary school i did experience friends having another souls in them.

I swear it was way too UNCOOL & real.

today was freaking bored...
woke up at 7am & realised that i had drooled[saliva on pillow],
my pillow was wet.
went to change the pillow case & dried my pillow.
then went to bathe at around 7.30am.
online-d & played maple?

then used laptop until like 4 plus then off & slept.
woke up & use again.
tomorrow got the Organizing Committee Meeting[for the BBQ on the 28th].
planning for the games,I/C,etc.

currently listening to Muttons To Minute!!
gawd,their jokes are freaking hilarious & lame!!
gonna listen until 12?
hopefully yes,cause i dont wanna hear other sounds.

Caryn,tmr then i do your survey.Sorry!

~ends~

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Sunday, November 16, 2008

At popular just now,
I WAS NOT angry with liyun for being angry at me[makes no sense].
but because i heard something that really pissed me off.
i dunnoe if i should update or not,cause its really so freaky & its 11plus now.
maybe i will update tmr.

Liyun,Im soryy about just now,cause my aiming really sucks[you should know].
oh well,i'll update tmr.Au Revior!

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Saturday, November 15, 2008

Another Vision
I'm serious that all my visions were true.
Believe it or not,its your choice.
The first vision dated back on october.
It's a horrible thing to see,especially to know...

It started with a problem,a problem in school.
To make it clear,friendship problem.
Well,I could say only a few know about it.

Since I was so hurt & sad,I decided to do something for this person,
whom I shall name bamboo[not real of course].
I invited bamboo out,
& even though we didn't talked much,
my heart was already crying out,
"Do it!stop torturing yourself!!"

I was in a dilemma,I didnt know what to do.
But in the end,I decided to do it.
I got up slowly,
then walked towards bamboo,who was standing near the hand rails.

Then I passed a stack of notes to bamboo,saying,
"he...here...here are a stack of notes for your examinations.I hope it will be helpful to you."
Then,passing bamboo another stack,I said with a cry,
"Here...here's a stack of stories that I have written,my feelings & my emotions.I really do hope that you could read it."
Then,I bowed to bamboo,making a perfect 90 degrees.

When I bowed,memories flashed across.
The times of sadness & sorrow,time of joys & happiness.
Recalling everything,I could feel tears rolling down my cheeks.

For about after 10 minutes,after everything got recalled & was remembered,
I bowed & walked backwards,like how the Thai's do,
then i just walked out of that place with tears in my eyes.
Running towards somewhere I knew,here no one would find me,
I dropped down & cried out,"Why?!WHY?!WHY?!".
I simply just cried until sunset.

Bamboo went home,recalling what I said,bamboo read my second stack,
the ones with story,feelings & emotions.
At that time,I was just trying to forget everything,
when suddenly,
everything went blank.

I know there are more to be seen.

[All my visions' are all true]

today was quite a boring day lah,
quite pissed off also.
i mean,i hate ppl who interupt me,make so muc noise in public,etc.
most of all,i was pissed off by my mum.
like there was a conversation:

me:tomorrow got go see movie.
mum:why you everytime tell me last minute?!
me:I never ok!I told you like dunnoe how many days ago lah!
mum:answer me some more!so rude right?!
me:i rude my problem lah!care so much for what!you also dont care!
mum:[go smoke]

was like super pissed off lah!!
nvm,still got.

mum:when your bbq is?
me:27th
mum:when buying the things?
me:on that day lah
mum:must wash the food.
me:then 26th buy lor.
mum:you always tell me last minute.
me:I got meh?!I never!is you always forget!
mum:argue some more,dont come ask me for pcket money.
me:dont give then dont give lah!watever~

super pissed off lah!!
so stupid.
i hate siblings who are not related to me by blood!
I hate my siblings!
I hate my mother's BF!!
**** lah!

shall calm down.
nvm,
tomorrow going to see show,Madagascar 2:Escape to Africa.
comfirm will be fun??
anw,tmr also gonna collect the tickets for the St. Patrick's Concert on the 22nd december.

all i can say is,
I CANT WAIT FOR THE 20TH & 27TH!!

~ends~

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Friday, November 14, 2008

My Second Vision
I swear I wasnt dreaming.
I wanted to tell people what I had seen but no one would hear me out.
I wanted to warn people about everything bad,but no one wants to believe.
Well,I just have to post it here.

This is what I saw:
I saw a group of humans going down the streets killing everyone they see in sight.
They looked...looked so familar...
It is as though they wanted to take their revenge,
revenge on someone,someone great.
Then I saw another group of humans,who were wearing uniforms,
chasing after the killers,trying to exterminate every single one of them,
but there were way too many.

Then there was another group of humans,
shooting everyone else down,as if no body's business.
They thought everything had ended,but no,there was more to come.
Another big group of humans,whom when I looked closely,
they were...they were my friends!
They were fighting & many of them were injured.

At that moment,I wanted to just enter it & stop everything.
But no,I cant.
I knelt down & cried.
I asked myself why was I so useless,not doing anything.
All I had seen,was...was...something that i cant explain.
I could nothing more,so I carried on looking.

Then,I saw someone else,being escorted by the most beautiful angel I have ever seen,
walking through the fights & stopping them.
It stopped,& he vanished somewhere after everything was fine.
But instead of seeing peace,I saw many of my friends being killed & injured by the fights.

I really wanted to jump right in & scream "STOP",
but I could not enter my own vision.
Dropping down,I cried & hitted myself,
knowing that it was the end,I took a gun & shot myself.

Well,today was quite....ok i suppose.
Trombone tutor came,& he did not scold us.
Btw,I improved!!I could play high "D" le.
so by the next practice he comes,must play a high "F".so high sia..=/
nvm.
& I could also tongue better!!
so happy,but i still hate trombone.-.-

during lunch break,
went to koufu with azura,caryn & syafiqah but on the way saw syahirah,hazel & lengna,
so go together lor.
then eating time,lengna keep on making me talk until i was the last to finish the food.=(
then walked back to school,half-way it rained.
so me & caryn ran back.then bought water & tissue.
then went to band room,then mr ong come,then sectionals.
then like so slack lor,sectionals combine with tuba & euphonium but also nvr practiced much.
boring~~
but got insulted by chuan kai & chuan bo lor.wth!!
then went back,played tribal quest.
i finally know how to play alot of parts better le.
then walked to bus stop,wan scare waihian de,then syaria go spoil by saying hi.-.-
not fun de.

nvm,went home.
but when walking up the stairs,suddenly all the lights all very dark,then when i go le,all light up again.
so freaky...
boring world,boring life

~ends~

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Thursday, November 13, 2008

No stories today,quite tired.
-.-
song from choir:

Days Of Quiet Joy
When I dream of happier days.
When the sun breaks high above the clouds.
Bright golden rays flow down upon the earth.
And when i walk with you,I think of sun-filled days of quiet joy.
For the sun shines down upon the earth in joy & happiness.
All the blue birds sings in praise of new found life.

When I sing a song of peace.
Gentle winds blow through the forest pure.
Gentle winds blow through the forest pure.
And when I walk with you,
I think of peaceful days of quiet joy.
In the garden grows new flowers fresh & true.
All the blossoms burst in colourful display of life.

When I sing of happier days.
Of the golden peace to be found.
I remember sun-filled days of quiet joy.
When I dream,
When I walk,
When I sing of happier days.

A very very very meaningful song.
singing it with feelings,i could feel the presence in me.
its like...wow....
I soooooo love this song!!

went for choir today,it was miss xuan.
then we sang dandansoy,days of quiet joy & can you hear me.
walked to the bus stop,then saw denise.pei her wait for her bus.
saw MISS LEO?but after that,msg-ed to comfirm.
after that,me & nora went out to westmall.
was having headache already,then went home online/sleep.

no job,no nothing.
i suppose i should study at home.
like what i said,i will beat shermane in every subject,including chinese!!
i will try my best!!

i really wished that we could be friends again.
but its too late for regrets.
its too late to take my words back.
thinking about you at times,really makes me sad.
i thought about it,i wondered why.
not a second chance...
its life still,i suppose.
i still have to move on & not rot there.
well,if you need help then find me,i'll still be willing to help.

~end~

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Wednesday, November 12, 2008

sorry people,NO stories today.
just have to emphasize on CHOIR SYF Sap piece & choice pieces.
well..
I thought mr yong would scold me,but no,
he welcomed me back!!
anyway,i know how to sing the songs within 2 practices!
fast eh?

Anyway,we were given our choir Sap piece today.
So far,for all I know,
our choir,as in the hillgrove choir,
has never ever sung songs in 8/8 time signature.

but our SYF Sap piece,its called THE WHITE HORSES,
was in 7/8 & it wasn't easy for people who dont know how to read notes.
well,from 7/8 it changes to 4/4 then to 9/8 & then 7/8.
but the song was quite meaningful.
Here is how it goes(melody):

I watched the white horses race over the sound.
With manes streaming back as they gallop and bound.
Across the blue pastures of wild summer sea.
The waves rise and dip as they toss playfully.

The surf foams about them ,they ride it out well.
They watched anchored boats as they sway in the swell.
And swing on their moorring ropes,straining and taut.
They steeds have no reins,they've never been caught.

The wind wipes the spray from their lacy white crests.
While billows roll under the sea that never rests.
They kicked up their heels in their high spirits and prance.
And laugh at the boats as they join in the dance.

Doo dn dee ooo,doo dn dee ooo,doo dn dee ooo,doo doo,
doo dn dee ooo,doo dn dee ooo,doo dn dee ooo,
doo doo doo.

The wind is their master,he musters and drives.
His team of white horses race for their lives.
For the wind dies,they cease to exist.
And all the brave horses dissolve in the mist.

And all the brave horses dissolve in the mist.

Meaningful?its about white horses.& its tough to sing.
well,our choice pieces have to be one Asian & one Western.
so we plan to sing Dandansoy for the Asian,& either Days of Quiet Joy or Can You Hear Me?
well,mr.yong say see which one we can improve better then sing that piece.

anyway,after choir,ran in the rain,went to westmall.
then went to get some stuff with nora.
thank nora for the treat!!
then went home.

talked to Hurul about the class BBQ.
then plan le,asked ppl.
so far,got 17 people comfirm going le.
others all havent reply.
wow,i cant wait,but obviously i have to pay more.-.-
nvm,for the sake of 2A1.haha.

was chatting with people on msn when i heard something.
my mum was like shouting,"You cut your hand ar?!You cut on your veins,you die on the spot!"
I immediately knew it was my sister cause my brother was like saying,
"Her friend teach her wan.they take penknife cut."
i went out ask her "who teach you?why you cut?"
then she say,"no one teach.dunnoe."

anyway,they also got their results back.
i looked,i laughed immediately.
my sister,only just passed her english & chinese,failed her mathematics & science.
my brother more professional,fail everything except for english.
somehow their school promoted them!!
unfair...
nvm,i am just looking forward to the 20th & 27th.

~ends~

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Tuesday, November 11, 2008

My True Life Story
Since young,i was active & tough,especially in sports & asthetics.
well,what can you say when I bit someone's hand when I was in kindergarden.
From kindergarden to primary school,
I didn't have a choice but my grandparents insisted that i go to an all-girls' school.
Morever my relatives,my cousins & my mum were all from the same school.

Marymount Convent,one of he top disciplined school was I in.
we had to behave like "Ladies Of Grace" & of course follow our scholl values,LIGHT.
L-Love,I-Integrity,G-Grace,H-Happiness,T-Trust.
Five values wasn't easy to cope with as it had to be displayed in different ways,
but what was worse was that the dicipline level was high!

Well,skirts were super long,socks were super high,hair were all fringed up & neat,respect was to be given to every single teacher in school,vulgarities were all banned,punctuality was essential,singing of the school song was a must.

That's how i survived for six whole years,not learning any bad stuff,except when I was in primary three to five.
Everything went wrong but I thought it was right.

In primary three,I started lying,cheating on homeworks.
In primary four,I mixed around with the wrong person,
so we,as in me & that person,started skipping lessons,lying,cheating in tests & we strated it with Social Studies.
But all soon went worse when the teacher called my grandmother complaining that I ha skipped her remedial lesson.
In primary five,I was rebellious & refused to do homeworks at certain time,
cutting the leaves from the banana tree,cheating in more tests,failing my first language,English.
But the teachers refused to give up on me & I just totally ignored their advices,
even though they helped me to pass my failing subjects.
In primary six,during the first half of the most important year,I totally did not improve in my studies & slacked alot.
but my teacher really did not give up on me.
She organised tuitions at her home,treated us,guided us & chatted with us.
It was only during the secong half of that important year that I caught up,
learned & studied harder.

During the examinations,my teacher prayed hard.
She knew I was not good in my Mathematics & Mother Tongue.
But she had total faith in me & I was encouraged to do better.
I knew it was all in my hands.

I tried hard,answering every questions that i could & could not.
my hard work was paid off,but i wasn't satisfied with the results.
I went to a corner & cried,but somehow my best friend told my teacher & she came running towards me.
Looking at my results,she exclaimed,"Wow,claudia,I'm so proud of you!You got a B for Math!"
then she hugged me & whispered in my ears,"Don't cry claudia.You are special in my eyes & God is with you always.Be happy for whatever you have."
I continued ignoring & just cry.

Being in a all-girl school for six years of my education makes me feel weird around guys.
but it was so shocking that after getting my PSLE results,I was admitted to Hillgrove Secondary School,my fourth choice.
I appealed for transfer to CHIJ St.Teresa's Convent but it failed.
No choice do I have except to just bear with having guys around.

The first few days in Hillgrove was quite quiet.
well,being in 2A1 was quite fine with me,but it got worse when we sabotaged a guy who was not responsibe,to be the chairman.
It was really bad,when the guys played monkey with our pencil cases & spoiled the windows & doors.

Well,i was the so called "hero",trying to stop & forcing the guys to return the pencil cases.
no choice,i had to suffer the consequences after forcing them.
The teachers didn't helped much,only mdm lee did.
well,i should call her my "Heroine".

Mixing with the wrong people,i was influenced to do the wrong thing,
slashing myself.
Well,to admit,i did have a stead,but we broke up because we agreed that we could not be together,under some circumstances.

At the beginning of this year,I met some nice people.
Practically,they changed my entire life.
If i could,i would thank these people,but even a thousand "thank you" would not express my gratitude towards them.

The slashing stopped,vulgarities almost stopped.
Thoughts of piercing ear,tongue,nose were forced to stop.
i thought i would be happy being with them...
but soon my happiness disappeared...

I was lonely then,since beginning of the year but not so when only one person was with me all the while?
I was backstabbed,insulted,bullied & confused.
I did not know who to trust...
Councillor stuff & duty stresses me up,my brain were dead tired at times.
I lost my temper,got angry easily,i really did not know what to do.

I hated that particular person for doing those to me.
at times i wished i could just kill her.
but well,no,i did not.
accepting it normally,ignoring it like...
Dropping in my studies this year,i became crazy over studying.
staying back everyday to study & to get my position back.

I never knew that that particular friendship was derioting.
but somehow,i felt it.
The bond between us,the promises we made,was all gone into the drain.
I was totally depressed,but suddenly,something made me feel better.
Though everything between us was gone,my studies improved loads.

Many at times,i felt like quitting my position as a councillor.
but someone said that it would be good for JC.
well,maybe im not quitting.
Getting my results back,i was over the moon when i knew i was placed third in class.
I was quite happy but sad as i did not managed to go to express,even though i could.
Somehow,people still say express is harder.

Another happy day on the 4th of november,
was when we knew which class we were going to.
well,i managed to go to the A Math class.
happy but sad,that wong was in the same class too.

Ignored her,i went on.
now in life,i seriously have no fixed mind of my own.
A wave of feelings & emotions am i made up with.
Random eelings & emotions do i have,at different times.

Now i know that no matter what happens,we still have to carry on with our lives.
Regardless of loing your best friend or what,our lives are 10000 times more worth.
Some friends treat you differently,others dont.
but after all,what maters most is the heart.

I have nothing else to say.
Adios' people!

My GREEN Spectacles!!

My Spectacle set[GREEN box,GREEN clothe,GREEN spec]

well,probably im too greeny.
but I LOVE green!it rocks my world!
nvm,tat was random.

anw,today woke up,online-ed.
chatted with peeps,then had a shower,went to get some stuff for ah ma,then met up with a human penguin[the live version].
haha.
got my spectacles & then hopped on train to gombak.
ate bee hoon goreng,then did homework at mac.
was ok lah,but really was quite stupid to forgot my math. -.-

walked to the bus stop as we parted & i waited for the bus.
went back home & online-ed.
well,was actually laughing at
MISS LEO.
lol.
tmr got choir,hope i can remember the score.
I WANNA PLAY PAINTBALL!!
who interested?

~ends~

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Monday, November 10, 2008

My Life Story
I really could not take it,but to just write them in my diary.
more heart-breaking events just keep happening.
When i was born,my mum passed away while giving birth to me.
i was not even told abt it until i was 5.

I was not so smart but after i was told about it,i acted normal,
surprised by my family.
Losing my biological sister at the age of 7 made it worse.
I suffered from breakdown & my studies were affected.

I got retained for 2 years in primary 2,
which made me a laughing stock,but i ignored.
When i turned 9,
my grandmother passed away due to an heart attck.
Even at her bedside,she struggles for survival,but it was not her choice after all,
she closed her eyes at midnight.

It was another heart shattering event as she was closer to me.
i cried non-stop for days & my studies were severly affected,
but i managed to get though by half a mark.
it was by luck,i suppose.

When i was 12,at the stroke of midnight,my 12th birthday,
my grandfather fainted due to a sudden asthma attack.
We prayed hard but i prayed harder.
Our prays were not answered,
& another of my beloved ones was gone.

It happened before the all Primary School Leaving Examination,also known as,PSLE.
I broke even more.
Days before the examinations,i was told that if i did not do well,i would retained.
but i argued back saying,"If grandma did not left,i would have listened."

They were stunned,& i just barged into my room with tears.
everyone just continued with their life.
i kept on crying,when suddenly,my grandmother appeared,
"Please go & study.do well.im with you always."

I thought i was dreaming but after slapping myself,i knew i wasnt.
I studied hard like a mad dog but i didnt care.
when the results came out,i was top in the cohort & it got me into a special-streamed school.

When i was in secondary 1,
another diaster came.my father suffered from lung cancer & dropped dead onto the floor after having his last puff.
It was another great blow,i just regretted alot of things.

I was left with my uncle,my siblings & my aunt.
staying with them was a nightmare.No,it was worse than that.
I had to squeeze into the room & was their maid.
Life was difficult,a living hell.

But it was soon over when my uncle's family died in a car accident.
i was 20 years then,but 6 years of hell was enough for me.
i was relieved but sad at the same time.
the last of my kin,was...was...gone...

Heart ached,i went to the last storey of the building,
waiting for the right time to die.
I jumped & i went flying down.
in my mind,i thought: its over Val,its over.You'll be free now.

As i flew from the top of the building down,
i thought about my experiences,my emotions.
then i realised,dying wasnt worth it.
i regretted.i panicked,but it was too late.
I thought i would die from this 40-storey nightmare.
but darkness soon clouded my mind...

"Miss Valerie,Miss Valerie,are you alright?"
I slowly opened my eyes to see people with white masks surrounding me.
i nodded my head & they told me what had happened.
they said i was lucky that i survived as 1 in 1000 people would survive from this suicide.
I smiled weakly,i knew i had pulled through the ordeal.

back!!
boring.
hate it.managed to smuggle back chewing gums,bubble gums,etc.
bought some antique stuff but really hate my stay there.
stayed at a 5-star hotel & it really sucks staying with my aunt,she doesnt like noise & she keeps talking about facial.-.-
more like a maid,ive been not paid to look after my siblings,the most irritating ones on earth.

went for the wedding & everyone says it was hot,but i still wore a jacket out & everyone was like,"you from which country?"
ignored them.
didnt really enjoyed...
no fun,no laughter,no peace,more like a babysitter.
a jailed person i was,but i still bought stuff under the tax of my grandparents.
no choice still.
i hate travelling now even though im an enthusiastic person.

today,
hate it man!!
woke up at 6am,but was damn tired lah.
went for councillor stuff,was like...
dunnoe how to say lah.
just that we had loads of teamwork & laughter.
not gonna say le...

message to Alicia:
thanks loads!talking to you definetly made me feel better.
was not in the mood but after a while,was laughing like a mad horse!
haha.
remember to smile always!
yup,some mathematical equations for you:
Alicia= pig + bear = Hairy Pig
Alicia= Pig + Exploded House + Apple = Roasted Pig
Alicia= Bear + White = Polar Bear
Alicia= Pig + Human = "Barbie" Girl

HAHA!!NO OFFENCE!

recently no mood to talk.
sudden feeling of death,anger,sadness...
i really cant stop myself,for some UNKNOWN reasons..
which i really dont know.
past events keep flashing across my mind & my heart just keeps breaking.
each time it breaks,it gets back together & breaks again.
the pain i experienced...keeps repeating over & over again.
tears keep dropping,heart keeps breaking...
no other choice except to accept it...

watching "Lord Of The Rings" made me wonder.
which of my friends are Sam & who are Frudo...
i noe that i am stubborn,stupid,immature,brainless,negative,asshole,etc.
just like Frudo,exactly like him.
i wonder...who will keep friendships 'till the end of time & who will not.
i shall see.

~ends~

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Wednesday, November 5, 2008

I feel so useless...
I feel so sad...
My heart hurts again...
when i see her online,it hurts.
i dont want to scold or shout,but i cant stop the "other" me...
im sorry..
if scolded anyone of you or wat...
sorry.

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My Feelings
It's not easy being a friend,when stuff pops up & you stand up for ppl,
risking your position as you stand up for your friends.
it isnt easy as you thought it is.
so if you think that im talking crap or what,
you'd probably would not want to continue reading.

I wish i could just change my brain,my memory,my heart.
past events keep flashing over & over again.
who would know what will happen,
who will know what i'll do,
who can understand me,my feelings,my troubles,my fears,my happiness,my joys,my sorrows?

What if ppl backstabs you,how would you feel?
what if ppl tell lies about you to others,how would you feel?
what if you were lonely because someone snatched away your friends,how would you feel?
what if someone just keeps looking down on you,how would you feel?

At least think of ppl lah!
you say you are hurt because of what i said,
think carefully.
I was more hurt than you!!

when i was lonely,no one came.
when i was backstabbed,you snatched away all my friends.
when i did nothing wrong,you told lies about me to others.
when i was weak in something,you looked down on me.
You think its fair?!?!
NO!

When i got lower marks than you,must you look down?!
when i finally got higher than you,why you dont dare talk to me?!
why must you always steal my friends away from me?!
WHY!
why must you act so poor thing?!
why must you attraact attention?!
why cant you just shut your crap up & die?!

I cant take it anymore you know!!
I want to die can?!
I dont want to think negative but thinking of you makes me think!
I still have the lines on my wrist,i dont want cut anymore can?!
I dont want scold anyone already can?!
If i was dead...i wonder what would life be like...
If everyone was good,i wonder how would life be like...

message to this *****:
SHERMANE WONG!I WISHED YOU NEVER EVEN LIVED LAH!
& doesnt mean Gordius always help you,you can take advantage of him!!
**** LAH!
I hope next year i have the chance to beat you in all subjects INCLUDING CHINESE!
I must beat you,& I will,even though i hate chinese!!
argh!!!

message to WeiTai:
diao leii...
dont emo lah,everytime emo emo...
-.-
dont need so worried also,still got other friends right?
you made the right choice,after all,he is still childish.
you need not go help him,he must help himself,even though he knows what he is doing.
anything,you could just talk out,not go *** yourself right?
& I'm not the stupidest women in N.A.
-.-

I'm sooo sorry people!!
i will not be updating stories from today until this sunday,5th-9th november.
as i will not be in singapore,so if you wan to write stories,just go read the stories on the,29th/30th/31st october & 1st/2nd/3rd/4th november.

byebye!

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Tuesday, November 4, 2008

I Can Tell The Future
I did not know that since birth I had a gift,
a special gift.
A gift of predicting the future,
dreaming dreams that will come true.

I never expected all this to happen until now.
since young,i was a playful little girl who did not really think & cared about life.
but after two incidents,it changed my mindset forever...

"No,this cant happen.it will not."
i dream...this dream,a weird dream.
my friend,died in a car accident,a bad one.
then she was admitted to the ICU,but left the world a fews hours later,
due to loss of blood.

I thought it was just a normal dream,but it was real,for sure.
it actually happened.
when i read the news,they clearly stated the name & how she died!!
i cried non-stop.
then i remembered the dream,i beat myself up until i was sent for councilling.

It was hell.
no,worser than hell.
they pump you with questions until you break down & cry.
more like interrogations.

After councilling,i went home & just cried in my room.
i asked myself,why must it happen to me.
then i took a blade & started slashing myself.
no hurt,no pain,no gain.

But soon after everything returned to normal,a second incident happened.
this time,i dreamt of school.
a school which is so unfair,so biased,& i get expelled for an argument,
it happened.

I was arguing with a teacher over a mathematics question,
then the principal,by accident,walked passed.
he told me to say sorry and when i told him what happened,he said,
"GET OUT!YOU DONT NEED TO COME TO SCHOOL FROM TOMORROW ONWARDS!"

At that moment,i begged for another chance,
but they did not even care to hear & threw my stuff out.
in fit of anger,i walked out & never went back,despite my friends pleas.

Till now,i'm not so educated,but i managed to write this story for you.
I hope to live a better life,have a better future.
till then.....

went get results.
got into A Mathematics class.
happy but sad cause SHERMANE WONG is also in 3A1.
wth...
went to ings house,slacked but was disrupted but some stuff.
we chatted & laughed alot.
tmr still got band.
very tired le,now so confused.
death or live?

~ends~

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Monday, November 3, 2008

My Special Penguin,Jacky
All the while,penguins were the only things i cared.
my mum,my dad,my sibling,my relatives,
they could not even separate me from my favourite penguin stuff toy.
I treated it like my family,gave food & water,played with it,
but it never once spoke...

On my every birthday,
all i wished was that my penguin who i named Jacky,to speak.
i thought i could live forever with him,
but i was wrong.
World War III came...

"C'mon.leave everything.you're going to the concentration camp."
"My penguin!!No!!i need it!!"
i snatched it away & went.

In the camp,there were thousands of people.
many were frail & sick.
I was among them,sick.
but despite everything,i still held Jacky close.

We slept next to each other,did everything together,cried together,suffered together.
but,even after everything happened,he never said anything,
& the only thing he did was to smile.

One night,whilst huggin Jacky so tightly,
he suddenly seemed sad.
i rubbed my eyes,i thought i was dreaming.
but hey,no,i wasn't.

"I've see you suffering,no,its sad.you cared so much for me,now its my turn.I will save you from all danger." Jacky said.
I thought i saw him crying,but yes,he was,indeed,crying.
i cried,as we hugged each other.
"I will never leave you."

Months passed,years passed,& Jacky was still with me.
He did meant what he said after all.
he protected me from everything,& we survived through hell.
but everything soon ended one day when one of the guards shot him.

"NO!!!JACKY!!!YOU CANT LEAVE ME!!!" but all i saw was,cotton flying in the air.
I looked as my eyes puffed up with tears.
I could not stop crying for days.
My best friend,my family,my brother,is gone....forever...

I did nothing & i wished everyday that i could rot & die faster.
but one night,he appeared & said,"I miss you Joyce,i miss you.but its fate that separated us.do not fret,we'll be together again someday.everything will return to normal after tomorrow."
"After tomorrow?What's going to happen?"
"I will not say.Just wait & see.Goodbye my friend."
"Wait...You havent answered my question.."

And he vanished...
what he said came true.
We were given our freedom after the British dropped the bomb in Germany.
My freedom,is back..
but my memories will never die.

Jacky,my penguin,I will remember you always.

~ends~

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Sunday, November 2, 2008

When I Was..
Since young,I've been looked after by my grandparents.
being a little child,i'm innocent.
a good girl was I & never getting into trouble.
but of recent years,I never knew i was more mischievious...

I used to listen to them when i was young,
they cared for me so much.
When i was 9,
i became a little naughtier.
Even so,they still cared for me.

When i was 12,
i was hot-tempered & though i was naughty,
they still cared for me & kept their peace.

When i was 13,
i mixed with the wrong company,
i became naughtier,
they still cared about me even though i did not.

When i was 14,
i did not even care about them,
but they still did,
giving me everything i wanted.

When i graduated from secondary education,
i did not even talked to them & treated them as "money tree".
whenever i needed money,i find them.when i dont,i dont care at all.
Even that,they still cared for me.

When i was in polytechnic,
i had many friends & i only cared about education & friends.
i neglected them so much that they were hurt,
but they still cared for me.

When i entered university,
i had my own life.
i didnt care about anything else except for my friends,my career,my sweetheart.
they still cared for me.

When i got married,
i invited them,they was happy to see me in white gown.
though everything happened so quickly,
i did not need their care but they still cared for me.

When i was 26 & had a kid,
i told them & they were over the moon.
i didnt really cared,but they still cared.

One day,
when i was working,i received a call that my grandfather fainted.
I rushed to the hospital immediately.
staying at his bedside,i just hope to see him recovered quickly.

As i prayed,he suddenly talked,
"Corrine,do not worry about me.I'm fine.Go back to work.Wait your boss fire you."
"you're more important to me."
he kept quiet.
Then he had a heart attacked,& within minutes,he died.

"NOOO!!!You cant die!!No!dont leave me!!" I cried bitterly.
In the state of shock,my grandmother fainted.
She was admitted,this time,it was worse than getting fired.

I got a few days off & stayed by her side.
Then I told her with tears in my eyes,"I'm sorry ma...Im sorry for ignoring you & grandpa all the while.Im sorry...."
All she said was,"I forgive you." as she closed her eyes forever.....

At that moment,i felt as though my world came shattering down.
No life,no nothing.
even my husband could not calm me down.
I cried for days,neglecting my family,my job,my life.

But one night,
my grandfather appeared to me,he said,"Corrine,stop crying for us!We're in heaven now & seeing you in this state breaks our hearts.Please stop neglectng your family & everything!they need you."
I looked up with my puffy eyes & nodded my head.
He waved goodbye as he said,"Bless you."

Since that day after thar incident,
i remembered them & told my children how great they were.
& my kids enjoyed the story.
I will never forget what had happened & what they had done for me...

yesterday was my last day at cat class.
will miss CON2B forever!!
nvm,still got next year.
anw,i plan to teach catechism after next year comfirmation.

woke up late today & did not go to church.
well,i was tired.
went to do hw with waihian & changed the place many times.
but still managed to do a piece of hw finished.

well,im just gonna write more stories.
i hope you peeps will like it.
give ur comments too!

~ends~

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wth....read ppl blog & was sabotaged to do a quiz. -.-

1. Do you eat alot of fast food?
-hmm...hard to say,but i eat a variety of food.
2. Have you kissed anyone in 2008?
-obviously...NO!
3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
-No,because my Eeyore fell off the bed.
4. What did you last get upset about?
-When that stupid Wenke cant shut up.
5. Do you eat candy on a daily basis?
-No,i dont really like sweets.
6. What about in your 5th sent message?
- A message to Weitai.
7. Who was the last person you ate with?
-My brother
8. Who was the last person you took a picture of?
-My besties,michelle & vanessa!!
9. When ordering sushi, what do you get?
-Salmon Sushimi!!
10. Who was the last person you sat next to?
-My brother
11. What were you doing at 10 am?
-Reading ppl blog.
12. Have you changed alot since summer?
-Yea,ALOT.
13. What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?
-Green Tea!
14.Where is the place you want to be right now?
-GYM!!
15. When was the last time you cried?
-29th October 2008
16. What's your favourite song at the moment?
-I Stay in Love & Hero by Mariah Carey
17. What were you doing at 11 last night?
-Chatting on msn
18. Who's near you?
-My Eeyore
19. What were you doing at 5 am in the morning?
-Sleeping lah!!
20. What's bothering you right now?
-What should I be next time.
21. Who was the last person to talk to you on the phone?
-Liza =)
22. Whose house did you go to last?
-Ing's condominium
23. Who honestly knows everything about you?
-My Best Friends?or Xiiao Kitty?
24. Who broke your heart?
-No one,plu-lease,im always happy.
25. Honestly, do you love someone very much?
-Yes or No,also not your business
26. Who was the last person to tell you that they love you?
-My Untalkable Eeyore.haha.
27. Are you friends with the last person you kissed?
-No.
28. Are there any parts of your body that hurts?
-My heart lorh...
29. In the supermarket, the first thing that gets your attention is?
-Trolley!!so that i could slide with it.=)
30. How cool do you think you are?
-Very cool,dont believe,ask my friends.haha.=X
31. Drugs are?
-THE MOST SUCKIEST THING IN MY LIFE.
32. Which one do you hate the most?
-Cocaine
33. Who was the first person to text you today?
-Stupid FAT Weitai. :)
34. What was the first thing you did this morning?
-check handphone lah!
35. Who was your last missed call on your cellphone?
-My Mum?
36. What's the last mistake you made?
-Nothing?
37. What are you listening to right now?
-Honey by Mariah Carey
38. Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?
-My brother lorh
39. Who was the last person to call you.
-Mum
40. Is there anything you want to say to someone special?
- Who?My bro?yea,THANKS FOR BEING THE BEST BROTHER IN THE WORLD,even though you suck at times.
5 person to be sabotage:
-Caryn
-Denise
-Edwin
-Liyun
-Waihian

.i whine today, have u? .

Saturday, November 1, 2008

My Life Story
"Miss Lim,would you care to share with us your life story,since today our class work is about Life Stories."
"Erm...well...ok...ok,i will."
"Please continue,Miss Lim"

"Well,actually,my life isnt a nice life to live,but i had no choice but to continue living,
it was not for the sake of my friends or family,but since young,
i had a special gift,the gift of kindness & caring,but i must
& also to suffer & realise that everything was a blessing in disguise.

When i was born,my mum left me for another guy.She was 20 then.
she almost threw me from the 3rd storey.
I was lucky that my grandparents,my mum's parents,saved me.
they looked after me since then.

Though we were a poor-middle class family,
we survived the hardships under God's guidiance.
my grandparents even brought me to church when i was 3 years old!!
imagine,a 3 year old girl,goes to church & is amazed by the church mass.

My mum didnt really cared.
she only cared for herself,her friends.
even my birthday since a year old was not celebrated until now!
but i didnt really care,
i did not treat her as my mother.

I was not spoiled by my grandparents,unlike other kids.
I just accepted the way we were & I loved simplicity.
being enrolled in a high class school,
there were low class students too.
that was just my clique.

I was quiet,active & kind when i was in primary school.
as i grew older,i fell onto the wrong path & didnt really found my way back.
I mixed with bad company,skipping every lesson i could skip,defiance & lying.
but when I was in primary 6,
my life changed when my form teacher helped me.

Months before the first major examinations,also known as 'Primary School Leaving Examinations' or 'PSLE',
my teacher pumped us with loads of homework,& I,being the "bad" kind,refused doing them,
but my teacher said something,"Do it,even though you fail,pick yourself up & try again.I have faith in you."

That was like during the june holidays.
after the holidays,we got ourselves prepared for the examinations.
i suddenly realised that it was important & did last minute revision.
The examinations was horrible & i was afraid i would not get into the express stream.

What i said came true.
i did not get into the express stream when we got our results back.
I cried.but somehow,my form teacher comforted me & said that,
i have the potential but do not use it wisely & i was playful.

When i went to scondary1,i tried asking for transfer to a single gender school,
but to no avail.
so i had no other choice except to get used to having guys around.
my first year with the clas was quite playful as i easily topped the class & level.

But when we reached into secondary2,
things became tougher & there was more disciplin enforced.
i dropped in position but i did not really care,
all i cared was to get more friends.
but instead,i made more enemies.

Those enemies are friends who broke friendships & backstabbed me.
though i cant do anything,all i did was to blame God.
I blamed him for every mistake then happened & every problem that occurred.

I was so into computer at that time before the final year examinations,
& it was like in two weeks!!
but everything happened so fast that i lost stuff,broke friendships,got into trouble with the teacher,etc.
it was so depressing,at that time when you are geting ready for your examinations
but everything happened at the wrong time.

But somehow,i realised that it was a blessing in disguise when i got my results back.
I was over the moon!!
i managed to get top three positions.

Well,as for my mum,im still having troubles with her attitude.
though we always argue,i sometimes have to give in.
afterall,she's my mother,but i dont really care.
all i care is for everyone to be happy."

"Wow,Miss Lim,it was a nice story told." Tears filled their eyes,as my students cried.
"Now,it's your turn.Write about your life.I will not read it,no one will,except for you parents.We are going to mail it to them." I said,wiping my tears away.
"Ok kids,get down to work!"

[the story above is a true life story]

~ends~

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