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Tuesday, November 11, 2008

My True Life Story
Since young,i was active & tough,especially in sports & asthetics.
well,what can you say when I bit someone's hand when I was in kindergarden.
From kindergarden to primary school,
I didn't have a choice but my grandparents insisted that i go to an all-girls' school.
Morever my relatives,my cousins & my mum were all from the same school.

Marymount Convent,one of he top disciplined school was I in.
we had to behave like "Ladies Of Grace" & of course follow our scholl values,LIGHT.
L-Love,I-Integrity,G-Grace,H-Happiness,T-Trust.
Five values wasn't easy to cope with as it had to be displayed in different ways,
but what was worse was that the dicipline level was high!

Well,skirts were super long,socks were super high,hair were all fringed up & neat,respect was to be given to every single teacher in school,vulgarities were all banned,punctuality was essential,singing of the school song was a must.

That's how i survived for six whole years,not learning any bad stuff,except when I was in primary three to five.
Everything went wrong but I thought it was right.

In primary three,I started lying,cheating on homeworks.
In primary four,I mixed around with the wrong person,
so we,as in me & that person,started skipping lessons,lying,cheating in tests & we strated it with Social Studies.
But all soon went worse when the teacher called my grandmother complaining that I ha skipped her remedial lesson.
In primary five,I was rebellious & refused to do homeworks at certain time,
cutting the leaves from the banana tree,cheating in more tests,failing my first language,English.
But the teachers refused to give up on me & I just totally ignored their advices,
even though they helped me to pass my failing subjects.
In primary six,during the first half of the most important year,I totally did not improve in my studies & slacked alot.
but my teacher really did not give up on me.
She organised tuitions at her home,treated us,guided us & chatted with us.
It was only during the secong half of that important year that I caught up,
learned & studied harder.

During the examinations,my teacher prayed hard.
She knew I was not good in my Mathematics & Mother Tongue.
But she had total faith in me & I was encouraged to do better.
I knew it was all in my hands.

I tried hard,answering every questions that i could & could not.
my hard work was paid off,but i wasn't satisfied with the results.
I went to a corner & cried,but somehow my best friend told my teacher & she came running towards me.
Looking at my results,she exclaimed,"Wow,claudia,I'm so proud of you!You got a B for Math!"
then she hugged me & whispered in my ears,"Don't cry claudia.You are special in my eyes & God is with you always.Be happy for whatever you have."
I continued ignoring & just cry.

Being in a all-girl school for six years of my education makes me feel weird around guys.
but it was so shocking that after getting my PSLE results,I was admitted to Hillgrove Secondary School,my fourth choice.
I appealed for transfer to CHIJ St.Teresa's Convent but it failed.
No choice do I have except to just bear with having guys around.

The first few days in Hillgrove was quite quiet.
well,being in 2A1 was quite fine with me,but it got worse when we sabotaged a guy who was not responsibe,to be the chairman.
It was really bad,when the guys played monkey with our pencil cases & spoiled the windows & doors.

Well,i was the so called "hero",trying to stop & forcing the guys to return the pencil cases.
no choice,i had to suffer the consequences after forcing them.
The teachers didn't helped much,only mdm lee did.
well,i should call her my "Heroine".

Mixing with the wrong people,i was influenced to do the wrong thing,
slashing myself.
Well,to admit,i did have a stead,but we broke up because we agreed that we could not be together,under some circumstances.

At the beginning of this year,I met some nice people.
Practically,they changed my entire life.
If i could,i would thank these people,but even a thousand "thank you" would not express my gratitude towards them.

The slashing stopped,vulgarities almost stopped.
Thoughts of piercing ear,tongue,nose were forced to stop.
i thought i would be happy being with them...
but soon my happiness disappeared...

I was lonely then,since beginning of the year but not so when only one person was with me all the while?
I was backstabbed,insulted,bullied & confused.
I did not know who to trust...
Councillor stuff & duty stresses me up,my brain were dead tired at times.
I lost my temper,got angry easily,i really did not know what to do.

I hated that particular person for doing those to me.
at times i wished i could just kill her.
but well,no,i did not.
accepting it normally,ignoring it like...
Dropping in my studies this year,i became crazy over studying.
staying back everyday to study & to get my position back.

I never knew that that particular friendship was derioting.
but somehow,i felt it.
The bond between us,the promises we made,was all gone into the drain.
I was totally depressed,but suddenly,something made me feel better.
Though everything between us was gone,my studies improved loads.

Many at times,i felt like quitting my position as a councillor.
but someone said that it would be good for JC.
well,maybe im not quitting.
Getting my results back,i was over the moon when i knew i was placed third in class.
I was quite happy but sad as i did not managed to go to express,even though i could.
Somehow,people still say express is harder.

Another happy day on the 4th of november,
was when we knew which class we were going to.
well,i managed to go to the A Math class.
happy but sad,that wong was in the same class too.

Ignored her,i went on.
now in life,i seriously have no fixed mind of my own.
A wave of feelings & emotions am i made up with.
Random eelings & emotions do i have,at different times.

Now i know that no matter what happens,we still have to carry on with our lives.
Regardless of loing your best friend or what,our lives are 10000 times more worth.
Some friends treat you differently,others dont.
but after all,what maters most is the heart.

I have nothing else to say.
Adios' people!

My GREEN Spectacles!!

My Spectacle set[GREEN box,GREEN clothe,GREEN spec]

well,probably im too greeny.
but I LOVE green!it rocks my world!
nvm,tat was random.

anw,today woke up,online-ed.
chatted with peeps,then had a shower,went to get some stuff for ah ma,then met up with a human penguin[the live version].
haha.
got my spectacles & then hopped on train to gombak.
ate bee hoon goreng,then did homework at mac.
was ok lah,but really was quite stupid to forgot my math. -.-

walked to the bus stop as we parted & i waited for the bus.
went back home & online-ed.
well,was actually laughing at
MISS LEO.
lol.
tmr got choir,hope i can remember the score.
I WANNA PLAY PAINTBALL!!
who interested?

~ends~

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.i whine today, have u? .