Friday, October 31, 2008
His 21st Birthday
When i was young,on my every birthday,i would wish for a brother.
a brother who i would care & love.
when i was 5,my wish came true.
my family had a hard time choosing a name for him,
but in the end,we named him Vincent.
I thought that i could live happily with him forever,
but God reduced his lifespan & our hearts broke when the doctor said he had Alzheimer,
a disease which affects the mental abilities including memory, language, and cognition.
I blamed myself for everything,for not being able to take care of him properly,busying myself with school work,
& he was only 5 when it happened.though that incident struck me badly,
i did not give up hope,but showed him more care then ever.
At the age of 12,he was struck down with kidney cancer.
it was another heart shattering news,as i looked at him struggling for survival.
despite his illness,he continued to be active in school & the teachers loved him.
When he was 16,he was struck with leukaemia,
in which he was forced to stop being active.
That 3 incidents broke my heart badly & i cried out one day,in my room.
I cried out to God,"Why?Why must you do this to him?Why?!"
I didnt know that Vincent came into the room.
Then he told me something which i was shocked to hear,
"Why do you cry for me?If its the Lord's will to take me away,let him.After all,we were,made by him & we shall die by him."
That sentences shocked me & after he left the room,i felt a strong presence calming me down.
When he was 20years 3months old,we brought him for his usual check up & we were shocked to know that he had only 9months to live on.
I scolded God for making his life shorter & i was deeply sad with his life.
From an energetic,hyperactive person to a dying person.
Even though i was sad,i tried to spend my time with him within that 9months.
I told him stories at his bedside in the hospital,i read him stories from the bible.
when i told him about how Jesus died,he screamed,"No!That's not how it should be!No,it's not fair,it's not true!"
Somehow,i calmed him down & eased him.
On the last day of his life,i spent the whole day in the hospital with him,telling him how nice heaven was.
As I told him that,we would be happy if he was happy,he suddenly said,"Angie,that time you told me the story of how Jesus died,that crown,its not a crown of thorns!It's a shining golden crown,the brightest crown i've ever seen."
Looking at the spot where he pointed,i smiled sadly but i knew his time was almost up.
Few minutes before he died,he said this to me,
"Angie my sister,please tell mum & dad that i'm going with that man ober there,tell them not to worry about me.I'll be alright."
I once again looked at the same spot where he pointed & i felt a warm presence in that room.Tears flowed down like a river.
On the last minute,he said,"I'm going now,please tell mum & dad that i will be alright.I love you Angela,I love you my beloved sister.I will miss you...."
His voice trailed off...
I burst out crying,crying for him,grabbing his body,i shouted,"Why?Why must you leave me?!"
Then he suddenly opened his eyes,"Let me go Angie,I must be with my father now."
I let go of him & wept bitterly,i knew he was in heaven.
As the clock stuck 12,i suddenly remembered something.
It was his 21st birthday.
argh...
was late for fall in,& i didnt really care-d cause i wasnt in the mood.
hated it,the drills @#$%.
warmed up,played tribal & i was told that i cannot stretch sideways,but its natural for me.
so i hope i can transfer section.
saw denise by coincidence & she said she was having choir.
so i said,let me go help the Altos'
during 1 of the warm up,i was told not to sing,then i was "did i sing wrongly?".
but,the 2nd instructor said that i sang well & did the correct thing.
everyone looked at me,embarrassed,i looked down.
then durng a 10mins break after singing "Dandansoy",i asked miss Xuan to play for me "Days of Quiet Joy".
so,i sang solo & i sang with confidence.
it was the first time i sang that song,yet,i got the song correct except for 2 parts.
i was so happy with myself.
went home with a headache.
~ends~
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