fighting for oreos.

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Somehow,every friday,

i seem to be like oh-so

emo.

But im not.

Liza kept calling me an emo

b**ch.

always

happens.

oh oh,and by the way,

there's this OMFG nice song man.

It's the first song on my blog playlist,

you'll be probably listening to it now!

its freaking nice okay!!

Here's the lyrics:

EVERYBODY IN LOVE, GO ON PUT YOUR HANDS UP,
EVERYBODY IN LOVE, GO ON PUT YOUR HANDS UP,
EVERYBODY IN LOVE, GO ON PUT YOUR HANDS UP,
IF YOURE IN LOVE, PUT YOUR HANDS UP,

YOU KNOW YOU NEED SOMEONE,
WHEN THE NEEDS SO STRONG,
WHEN THEYRE GONE YOU DONT KNOW HOW TO GO ON,
SO THE WHOLE WORLD IS STUCK IN A MOMENT,
STANDING STILL UNTIL THEY COME BACK,
YOU ACCEPT THAT THEYVE, GOT THINGS TO DO,
BUT SOMETIMES IN THE END THERES NOTHING LEFT FOR YOU,
IF HURT IS MISSING YOUR BABY,
IVE DONE TOO MUCH OF IT LATELY,

EVERY MINUTES LIKE AN HOUR,
EVERY HOURS LIKE A DAY,
EVERY DAY LASTS FOREVER,
BUT WHAT ELSE AM I GONNA DO,
ID WAIT FOREVER AND A DAY FOR YOU,
I WAIT UP, WAIT UP,

I CANT EAT, I CANT SLEEP, WHAT ELSE COULD IT BE,
MISSING YOU SO DEEP,
LONG AS IM WHERE YOURE GOING TO,
ID WAIT FOREVER AND A DAY FOR YOU,
I WAIT UP, WAIT UP FOR YOU,

AND EVEN WHEN WE MAD, AND SAY WERE THROUGH,
DEEP INSIDE YOU FEEL THE SAME WAY I DO,
MIGHT AS WELL TURN AROUND AND JUST END THIS,
CAUSE ITS HARDER TRYING TO STAY MAD,
I COULD TELL YOU THAT YOU CANT STAY HERE,
KNOWING JUST AS SOON AS YOU DISAPPEAR,
THAT ILL BE MISSING YOU BABY,
SOON AS YOU GET UP AND YOU WALK AWAY,

EVERY MINUTES LIKE AN HOUR,
EVERY HOURS LIKE A DAY,
EVERY DAY LASTS FOREVER,
BUT WHAT ELSE AM I GONNA DO,
ID WAIT FOREVER AND A DAY FOR YOU,
I WAIT UP, WAIT UP,

I CANT EAT, I CANT SLEEP, WHAT ELSE COULD IT BE,
MISSING YOU SO DEEP,
LONG AS IM WHERE YOURE GOING TO,
ID WAIT FOREVER AND A DAY FOR YOU,
I WAIT UP, WAIT UP FOR YOU,

EVERYBODY IN LOVE, GO ON PUT YOUR HANDS UP,
EVERYBODY IN LOVE, GO ON PUT YOUR HANDS UP,
EVERYBODY IN LOVE, GO ON PUT YOUR HANDS UP,
IF YOURE IN LOVE, PUT YOUR HANDS UP

EVERYBODY IN LOVE, GO ON PUT YOUR HANDS UP,
EVERYBODY IN LOVE, GO ON PUT YOUR HANDS UP,
EVERYBODY IN LOVE, GO ON PUT YOUR HANDS UP,
IF YOURE IN LOVE, PUT YOUR HANDS UP

EVERY MINUTES LIKE AN HOUR,
EVERY HOURS LIKE A DAY,
EVERY DAY LASTS FOREVER,
BUT WHAT ELSE AM I GONNA DO,
ID WAIT FOREVER AND A DAY FOR YOU,
I WAIT UP, WAIT UP,

I CANT EAT, I CANT SLEEP, WHAT ELSE COULD IT BE,
MISSING YOU SO DEEP,
LONG AS IM WHERE YOURE GOING TO,
ID WAIT FOREVER AND A DAY FOR YOU,
I WAIT UP, WAIT UP FOR YOU.

cool right!!

the mtv rocks too!

sometimes i just wanna scream my lungs out

shout my heart out.

but when i look around,

there is no one there.

.i whine today, have u? .

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

i dont know why i am so

sad

these days.

Overcoming me

being

depressed all the time.

Trying to find out what's

complete insanity,

craziness spreads to the clean

part of my brain.

Trying to stop thinking of

death

makes me go crazier by

the minute.

I dont know,what's ever gonna

happen to

me.

sometimes i think about you,

sometimes i hate you.

but in whatever,

leave me alone,

give me peace.

.i whine today, have u? .

Sunday, January 17, 2010

illness,sadness.

complete insanity.

sometimes it comes,it goes.

other times,it doesnt.

what is it?

i dont know.

all i know is.

NO ONE REALLY CARES.

What is complete insanity?

.i whine today, have u? .

Saturday, January 16, 2010

OH MY GWAD!OH MY GWAD!
IM GONNA TEACH TODAY!
AH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

well,nothing else could calm this feeling of ecstasy down!!
except that,
i couldn't msg my mum.

complete sadness.
but i will,today!!
i cant wait any longer!!
gonna start a weekly journal,on blog.
trying to make it like a..hmm..
lit. style?

anyway,here it goes:

the past week have been one of the worse weeks ever,
probably name the TOP10 best & worse times ever.
.
.
Top 10 best times ever:

10)Played Bomberman 2 everyday.

9)Somehow,gave my best for the chinese test.

8)Never failed to go online everyday.

7)Always late for duty,but earlier than Vengyan.

6)Forced myself to understand the crappy math.

5)Meditated(like finally)

4)Spent less than 5bucks a day,excluding dinner.

3)drank the best herbal soup ever.

2)Crazily,managed to finish all the math hw in a day.

#1 BEST TIMES EVER:

Became the quietest person in class for the past 2days.(knowing that im a noisy person)

Top 10 worse times ever:

10)Moodswings.

9)Complete sadness.

8)Fear of loneliness.

7)Sense of insecurity ALWAYS.

6)Depression.

5)Fear of being bullied.

4)Pissed mum off.

3)Dreams.

2)Death.

#1 WORSE TIME EVER:

Complete Insanity

Oh well,never did i knew that my week was that simple,

only after looking back at it.

nothing beats more than just having friends who you dont trust around you.

only those few who i trust.

Complete Insanity?

Instant craziness

Sense of loneliness?

Just let it be

Dreams?

Can never be stopped

Fear of being bullied?

Let it be

Moodswings?

Swinging in you

Complete sadness?

Without happiness

Depression?

Just complete extreme sadness

Pissed mum off?

Pissing me off

Death?

'Till death comes.

My diary shall end here today.

read it without knowledge.

.i whine today, have u? .

Sunday, January 10, 2010

got commissioned as a teacher in church today.
cab to church with joachim anyway.
the shirt that was given was like.... SO BIG!!
woah.
anyway,it was an honour that 5 of us came from joachim's & jerome's class!!
went to kfc with michele & her mum.
had a nice 'long' talk.
wow,good luck mich.

rushed home to do up my undone homework.
bored now.
whatever.

sometimes i wonder why is it that im always stucked in the middle.

with events happening from both sides.

why me?

all i need is a happy family.

why this?

& i seriously dont know what to do.

slash myself?

eat 20 pandols again?

smoke?

cry everyday to sleep?

be a complete emo?

what else?

commit suicide?

i seriously dont know.

i would've been dead a long time ago.

but i dont know why am i still alive.

who knows,maybe everyone will rejoice when im dead?

maybe the problems will subside?

maybe the family will be happier when im not around?

why cant anyone understand?

why?

JUST TELL ME WHY.

.i whine today, have u? .

Saturday, January 9, 2010

was really pissed by this white guy in school yesterday.
frankly asking my SL about me?
dude,get your facts right.
argh.
rushed to church after band ended at around 6plus?
wow,luckily desiree was there,& i was all green.
played ice-breakers with M&M's.
watched some videos & was told to sign up to plan for stuff.
& I signed up for the planning of the youth camp & maundy thursday.
gwad,hopefully everything goes well.

met lisa at lester's office & saw joachim.
surprisingly when we walked to macdonalds,
victoria was there.
& during our walks to shop&save,vic & lisa were always on the same decision,while me & joachim.
took 105 home,& slept in the bus.
joachim sent me all the way home & walked back.
poor guy,he was injured.

had the basic catechist workshop this morning & it was kinda boring~
its like,wow,so many old people.
anyway,bro got into 4B & sis into 5A.
really hope they put michele & I into the same class.
sadly,not gonna be with jerome & joachim.
tomorrow's gonna be the commisioning of us,
full-time teachers!!

thats it.

no more.

its never gonna happen anymore.

both of us were never meant to be together.

so shut up mark.

.i whine today, have u? .

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Second day of schoool~

had duty in the morning,surprisingly,
my group catched up quite fast,
as compared to last year's sec2 juniors.

had E-math for the first 2 periods & it was like a lullaby to sleep.
followed by chinese.
since it was banded,apparently,i got into the third band.
miss pei was our teacher anyway,
set our target,took dates down,etc.
then it was the choosing of rep.
& some oh-so "kind" ppl volunteered & voted me to be the chinese rep.
terror!!

recess was still as boring as ever.
chemistry was another lullaby to sleep.
was shot on my head by mr.thiru who used a rubber band to shoot.
lesson was as funny as ever.

english next & i could see that everyone hated miss teo.
that white cabbage.
opps.
her lesson was the worst!
urgh.
social studies was story-telling by mr.pang & he told us stories about prison etc.

had lunch & went home.
cant wait for tmr.

~au revoir~

.i whine today, have u? .

Friday, January 1, 2010

Happy new year once again!!

oh well,
2009's over,welcoming 2010.
new New year resolutions.
cant wait for school to resume too!!
wanna see how retarded ive become.(i was always retarded)
also wanna see how tall the guys have grown(or fat)
haha.
havent done one of my math hw plus chinese!!
ah!!!
sheesh.
should start working on that too.
but well,fun's first before its over.
im not gonna care abit about those friends who backstabbed alot.
i know my other good/close/best friends are there for me.
oh well,let whatever happen,happen.

i feel like a moron.

i feel so dumb.

why?

cause i'm always giving in to wrong stuff.

i seriously dont know.

i dont know why i have these types of friends.

looks like the year ahead isn't clear.

its gonna be rocky & rough.

but still,i'll persevere,

cause mummy always said determination!

~ends~

.i whine today, have u? .

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

happy belated birthday wishes to my hyper b***h!!
sorry that i was unable to attend your celebration ya?
was ill.
school's gonna resume soon!!
cant wait!!
haha.
oh whatever.
N'level next year,gonna chiong on eng & chinese!!

oh well.
msg for wings~:
hey!
im never angry with you.
sometimes i dont talk is because im concentrating,not ignoring you.
please cheer up.smile always~

.i whine today, have u? .