sometimes i really wonder if i am really a friend to people around me or just considered as a hi-bye friend.sometimes i also wonder why am i born like this.sometimes i wonder if a mother will change for the sake of the love to the child.sometimes i wonder who is telling the truth & who is a liar.sometimes,i wonder if all these was god's doings or not.sometimes,i think that i messed up my life further when its already been messy from the start.sometimes i think that im not fit to be anyone's friend.sometimes i wonder when i can stop my life & just drop dead & see the reaction of everyone.sometimes...sometimes...sometimes,i just dont feel like doing anything except to stare into space & day-dream about the future,if i was to live that long.sometimes,i just wonder about when my death will knock on my door.sometimes...sometimes,i just dont feel like updating my blog.my life is messed im making it messier.
should have just drop dead to stop screwing it right?
screw it.
i wonder if everything's gonna be fine for me...or maybe not?
maybe picking up smoking seems to be a good idea.
or maybe to start of with slashing.
err...no.
start with an overdose first.
haix..
i dont know.
~ends~
.i whine today, have u? .