Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Dillemma
sinking into negative thoughts now..
as i start crying & regretting about the past,my past.
why cant i just forget everything & continue life happily?
why?
as the events appear,i felt so angry,so hopeless,so useless...
why?why wouldn't anyone feel the same?
why does everyone have to lead a good life,a better one than mine?
i started crying,crying until i couldn't take it anymore.
there's only one option left...Suicide
i got ready everything,the razor blade,a suicide note.
i drank loads of water.
i got the bath tub ready with hot water.
sitting down in the bath tub,i relaxed.
then i put the blade above my veins.
getting ready to cut,bleed & die,i said my last prayers.
then,all of a sudden,2 of me appeared.
an angel with the most brightest halo above her head,
& a devil with the most ugliest smile ive ever seen.
as both sides argued on my survival.
i looked at each of them in a dilemma.
then,i asked myself.
survive or die?everlasting pain or everlasting happiness?
then i just slash myself,not on my veins,on my flesh.
as i did that,i vented all my anger on it.
then,i knew i made the right choice,
i survived & vented my anger already.
as i soaked myself into the water,
i started looking at my bloody arm,dripping with blood.
but in my heart,i knew that dying isnt worth...
~ends~
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